I was hyper-productive at home regarding those things I knew Mom would be checking on, and letting slide....well, let's say 'cleaning my room'. Although a good student in school, I'd study like mad at the last second for a test, wait to read a book so that time only allowed for first and last paragraphs of chapters for book reports, and do would everything possible never to be called on in class.
In the work world, I would swiftly input information needed to care efficiently for my customers, both external cash paying types and my internal clients in the form of other departments. But, I'd put off reports and more background chores like filing until they could be put off no more.
There were definitely elements of house cleaning I would put off as long as possible(remember a couple paragraphs ago with the cleaning bedroom scenario). Over the years, it became more important to have a clean home, even if that meant I had to pay for it rather than do it myself. So, I've had a house cleaner for a good portion of the last 15 years.
So, it may not come as a surprise to find I sometimes procrastinate starting, and during the course of completing a piece of artwork. Will it turn out as I see it in my mind? Will I like it? Will others find it beautiful, will it touch their heart, will it stir something deep within? The 'what ifs' and the 'what if nots' try to hold me back. It is not an uncommon human condition.
In the past choices were based on nothing more than I simply don't feel like doing this-or-that; sometimes fear would override good senses. We choose to put things off and sometimes deal with the guilt it brings, or to just do it and feel better at having accomplished something.
The rheumatoid has given me an avenue of what could be called 'legal' procrastination. I have also found that guilt is optional.
Now my choices come from what I have the energy to do, what level of pain can be tolerated, or whether doing the art that day is more important than getting my personal paperwork up to date. Do I choose to cook a meal from scratch, or eat a prepared meal reheated and choose art?
I've just come off a period of no painting and it feels great. There's no way to communicate how happy it makes me feel. It took two-plus months to complete the construction of the website. At the same time, I dealt with a flare-up. But, late last week I began working on my 'in-process' works. One simply had to be signed. Really?! Procrastination at its finest! Yesterday I completed Autumn Basket. See the last updated compared with the completed work (soon to be updated with professional photos).
What are your struggles with procrastination? Or...is this not a problem for you?